Uniquely You!

Don’t Allow Others to Deem you Unworthy!

Seeing through a cloud of depression or mania is enlightening to say the least. One is able to read past and infer with great insight and clarity.  Being bipolar is not a hindrance or problem. It’s an asset that makes individuals uniquely different from others. When the veil of depression or mania lifts, endless possibilities abound!

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Negative Words Add Fuel to My Tank 

Motivation Words meant to cause pain have encouraged me to give my health a much stronger focus and drive. An older male from gym asked me if I had gained weight today. How rude and insensitive. Yes I gained a lb. or two during winter break# despite working out religiously 3-4 times a week and it’s none of your damn business.  Worry about yourself old man. 

His words merely added fuel to my tank to shed these lbs in a healthy way. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change (other’s view) and the courage to change those things that are within my control and power. Guide my steps to an approach that will suit my body, health, physical abilities and needs.

The tongue has the ability to give life or death. Be careful to plant seeds of vibrancy and life into others. 

Joys & Pains of Meds

Medication has the potential to lessen the severity of a mania and depression; however, taking medicine on a daily basis is not for everyone. Some medications have negative side effects which can be difficult to overcome.

For example, some meds make people wp-1472954894005.jpggain weight, experience acne breakouts, and have other adverse reactions.

I’m not going to lie, when I internally experience anxiety, can’t sleep, or overly stressed, I am the first to pop a pill to regulate the hormonal imbalance.  BUT, if life is in balance, I wholeheartedly believe someone who has Bipolar is able to manage their disease with little to no prescribed medications.

The following have worked for me:

  • Working out 3-5 days a week
  • Relaxation and meditation
  • Reflective journaling
  • Adequate sleep
  • Change in nutrition/diet
  • Therapy-individual as well as group
  • Tracking moods
  • Many other techniques to decrease stress, anxiety, and fluctuation in body chemistry

I’m not saying medication is not a viable solution to addressing mania and/depression. I am merely proclaiming, there are alternative that work just as well.

Controlling my Emotions

img_0120Control-the power to influence or direct people’s behavior or the course of events.

So I’ve been told I’m a control freak.

Balance is key.

Harboring ill emotions about how people feel about me

Only keeps me locked in a state of pity.

So what I’m controlling.

Let me be.

Controlling my own emotions, words, thoughts, and actions,

Actually sets me free.

I Think She’s on to Something

ocean-918897_960_720For the past twenty-eight years, I have practically lived in public silence with Bipolar disorder. Thankfully, I’ve had a strong support system of doctors, friends, and family members who have helped me manage my moods, behavior, and experiences with this disease.  One such person is my sister, Reubee, who recently suggested I start a blog, attend a group session, amongst countless other ways to overcome my illness.  You know what, I think she’s on to something.  

Because, I am no longer afraid to share my journey with others, I plan to:

  • Use this platform to talk about my experiences  with Bipolar to hopefully lessen another person’s battle with this disease
  • Use my voice (blog) as a vehicle to cope with the challenges of having a mental illness
  • Discover new ways to address being manic
  • Create an open forum for others to explore a different approach to being Bipolar
  • Give others hope

For starters, I was diagnosed with Bipolar at the ripe age of 16.  At which time, my mom had no clue why I couldn’t sleep, wouldn’t eat, rambled incessantly, and seemed wired.   Although, mental illness wasn’t new to my family, we had no one to turn to for advice or help back then.

Twenty five years later, here I am stepping out on faith and sharing my journey with the world.  This decision has not been an easy one, because as you well know society tends to stigmatize mental illness and those who are affected by them.  Prayerfully, this blog will open up a new and refreshing avenue upon wich to live a healthy life for my readers and self.

Welcome to my blog– Living Beyond the Bipolar Mania.